My God is more important,

The first step I've taken on this spiritual journey is getting completely rid of my biggest hinderance, Jim. I've found that he was the thing that was holding me back from God the most. It was and will be hard to just leave him behind, forget him, but it's something I have to do.

Dear Jim,

I fear that I've loved you too much. I've devoted most of my time to you rather than to God. Which is something I never should have done. I kept telling myself that I could change you, but I realize now that I was wrong. I brought myself down to your level to bring you up to mine. In the process of doing so I let my guard down, lost friends, and fell into love. Stupid me. I've disregarded the fact that you were the biggest hinderance between myself and God and stayed with you. I didn't want believe that what people said was true, so I kept putting it off and telling them that I loved you too much to just give you up just because you ignore me, yell at me or get mad at me for the stupidest things. And I was right, I did love you too much. Jim, I see now that you will never change, I see that you were never meant to change. God put you into my life as a trial, a trial I nearly didn't pass because I was foolish enough to believe that I didn't need God nearly as much as I needed you. How could I be so ignorant? You meant alot to me, but I have to let you go now. My God is more important.

Goodbye.